The Abrahamic God is a prick

I had this realization this week. Before I always thought it was more the Old Testament God that was a prick. I mean He did this:


What kind of God does that? He also tempted Abraham to kill his only son. And God killed countless others- either for being on the wrong side of the fight [for being a non-Hebrew/ Jew], for "sinning", or as a righteous sacrifice.

How does it make Him any different than this?

This whole epiphany started Tuesday. I went to a Bible Study. In which we read:

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." (Matt 7:13-14)

and....

"Not everyone who says to me 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the Kingdom of Heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven." (Matt 7:21)

WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE!!! You're telling me that I can walk the line... I can give up all I am for my entire life for a chance to live forever doing the same SHIT forever, but it might not be good enough... so there's a [bigger] chance that I might burn in hell for eternity anyhow ?! WHAT THE FUCK?!?! GOD is a prick!

Oh and there's only one way to get to that forever in the first place [that is much like this analogy]:
So in order to have me enter into heaven, God [in his all loving "mercy"] killed HIS only innocent son so that I can have a chance to go back to Him. Oh and I "get" to sing praises to Him forever. Sounds like God has a bit of a complex to me... After all, He is a jealous God...

That brings around to the problem with religion....

Overall, this has been Very therapeutic for me [and enlightening at the same time]. For me, it doesn't necessarily say in one way or another if there is a God. Perhaps all of it is no more than my Ego. It is entirely possible. But I know that my God is not this Abrahamic Prick.


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Free

by Winter

I am NOT your victim
Nor am I your cohort
I am NOT your friend,
your daughter, your wife.
I am NOT the one who
should wear your shame.
I am NOT guilty of your crime.
I am NOT involved in your sickness.
I am NOT your prisoner or even
your slave.
I am NOT a child anymore
but inside I cry just the same.
I am NOT broken and I will
NOT play your twisted game.
I AM free today.
I speak my truth
in spite of you.
I do NOT allow you to bring me pain.
I AM stronger now.
I AM stable
& I'm sane.
YOU prey on innocence.
YOU hide in the shadow
of a family's trust.
YOU break young girls.
YOU bring us pain.
YOU ruin lives.
YOU play sick games.
YOU stand alone
as always you did.
I was never a part
of YOU, you see.
YOU will pay for
YOUR crimes.
Not me.
I AM FREE.

Religion Unlisted

It wasn't a big change on the social media. Privately changing my listed religion from Christian/ Buddhist to simply Buddhist.

The change of heart though... THAT was amazing.

It was this discovery within the last couple weeks that I didn't literally believe in much of the Bible at all. The change really hit my heart when I realized I didn't believe that Jesus Christ is my savior.

Not because I think I'm perfect. Far from it. But what kind of God would make an imperfect being [like myself or the BILLIONS of other people] and then demand perfection? To top that off in order to satisfy that need for perfection, He gives up His only PERFECT Son to quench that thirst?

The whole notion of "sin" has pretty much gone away. Yeah there's laws I keep because they are my truth:

1) I still love/ honor God because I still believe in Him [or Her or It]. I see it in nature.
     I see it in my fellowman. I see it in the heavens. I hear it in a song.
2) I still will endeavor to love my fellowman to the fullest possible capacity

I thought the notion of letting go of Jesus would be a scary thing. I thought I would be afraid of hell and damnation. I'm not. I'm more afraid of what others [my Christian friends and family] would say if they knew. That's a big chunk of people for me.

I don't particularly feel like being preached at [because I know that's what would occur from several people.] I've heard enough Bible pounding for several lifetimes. So for now, while I build my strength and learn some more about my new found belief system, I lay quietly in my faith.

I will confess it is a hard thing to do because I'm usually the one calling people out on their stuff. And there's been plenty of stuff to call people out on, but I cannot explain it to them without there being Another discussion. One which I'm not quite prepared for.